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whole structure would collapse, run wild, blow up and lose its good and definite purpose. Dammit, (my brother speaking) I hope you make a million dollars! You are entitled to it.

For me, my story is just repetition of the major- ity of the others whose stories I have read in TVIA. I don't know how it happened but apparently I ran the normal course, the guilty secret behind locked doors, the frequent purges, the firm resolution and attempts to scale the unsurmountable peak to prove to myself I was all man. Then - more buying, and back to it again. I was so alone and did not under- stand my compulsion. I can understand the occasional TV suicide.

Just a few years back with our children married and away in far places, my wife (40th anniversary this year) somehow indicated she would tolerate my proclivity and tensions were eased. But with the advent of my first TVIA magazine (No. 25), I for the first time in my life became fully aware of my make- up and began to understand myself. What a tremend- ous relief!

I now know I must live with my sister as she is part of me. The "Wives Book" has helped and grad- ually my wife is beginning to accept my sister and all three of us can live out our lives in harmony. Actually at this moment, as I write this with a TVIA open before me (for inspiration), my wife is sitting beside me, calmly embroidering!

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I do not expect full understanding as I can't believe any G.G. or non-F.P. or even our learned doctors who have studied TV will ever fully under- stand an F.P. God is the only one who understands, as he made us. So as you suggest, I'm going to relax and enjoy it.

Faithfully,

Inez